But Ruth said:
“Entreat me not to leave you,
Or to turn back from following after you;
For wherever you go, I will go;
And wherever you lodge, I will lodge;
Your people shall be my people,
And your God, my God.”
~ Ruth 1:16 ~
Normally, this verse is quoted somewhere in a Christian marriage ceremony; today I am applying it to myself.
This past month has been one of the most difficult and consuming in my life. Nothing compares to it — not getting married, not having a baby, not being sick.
Here is the wonder of this month-long process: God has been gracious and a constant companion through it all. He has loved me and been patient with me, especially when my attitude and behavior were wrong. It was a process in which I have nothing to be proud or glad about; however, I am thankful that my heavenly Father was gracious to me.
Chris Tomlin’s song, I Will Follow, convicted me this morning because my response to the “trial” I went through has shown that even though I know Him to be trustworthy, faithful, and true, I did not entirely trusted Him nor was I steadfast in Him.
I do not know what it is about my heart that it can be so fickle as to when it trusts and does not trust the One who is faithful and true. As long as I live, whether in good or bad times, I will continue to seek Him. Peter said to Jesus, “Lord, to whom shall we go? You have the words of eternal life” (John 6:68).
My body is currently experiencing the effects of the stress of the past month. I do not know what is before me, but I do know that my God is with me; He loves me and will never forsake me. He will carry me through each day until He brings me home to Him. As long as I am in this body, I will have to fight “the good fight” and run “the race that is set before” me (2 Timothy 4:7 and Hebrews 12:1), but I will not do it on my own — He will do it for me. For He has said, “Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit” (Zechariah 4:6).
My prayer is that my relationship with Him will grow and be strengthened. I can only walk in the power of His Spirit and in His strength; by His grace, that is what I will do.
Father, You know my weaknesses as revealed during this past month’s experience. I know You will work them out of me and help me to grow in trusting You. Thank You for being with me; every day You were the constant that held me together. Teach me “to number” my “days, that” I “may gain a heart of wisdom” and so walk in the paths You have laid out for me with courage, grace, and in Your power. Be honored, blessed, and glorified; in Jesus’ name, amen.