Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above,
and comes down from the Father of lights,
with whom there is no variation or shadow of turning.
~ James 1:17 ~
I am sitting across from Noah, watching her eat; her hair is in a ponytail and to the side — she is so lovely! It is hard for me to understand the sight that is before me; tears cascade down my face as my heart swells up with love for her.
There was a time, before I was married, when I told a group of friends that I would never hear the words, “Mommy, I love you!” I realize now that it was God putting a desire in my heart, both for marriage and a child. How awesome is He, that He put that desire in my heart before my marriage and her birth came to pass?!
Noah is a precious and good gift from our Father (whom she loves). She is kind and tenderhearted, her touch is gentle, soft, and loving, but she can also be strong-willed. She loves to laugh and have fun, is artistic, loves children and friends unconditionally, and has a gift for foreign languages. Noah brings vibrance to our lives, so that when she is away, it is too quiet (and, ahem, somewhat dull).
God uses Noah as a constant reminder of His love and restoration, even in our moments of conflict. But underneath these moments is a love that binds us together and helps us to forgive each other. She keeps both of us on our toes, and sometimes on our backsides during laughing sessions when we are all tired. While her first decade of life was filled with learning the how-to’s, this decade is about bumps and thumps as she learns to navigate the streams of life she sails on. The best thing about this is that we are sailing these streams together; our hope is that even if lessons have to be repeated, she will learn them before she begins to sail on her own during her third decade of life.
I often ponder what future our Lord has for her. He has given her many gifts and talents, which are being nurtured even as a plant is cared for in a greenhouse. She has begun to use these gifts and talents in worship, caring for children, and using her artistic talents to bless others. Her big interest right now is Korea. She has begun to learn about the people and their culture, as well as the language. (Only our Lord knows the purpose for this interest; I may find myself living here in California with a daughter living on another continent doing His work.)
I have entrusted Noah to Jesus, but it is difficult to let go (yes, I can be overprotective). My prayer is that letting go will become easier as she becomes more and more like Him and is found in His good, pleasing, and perfect will.
Heavenly Father, You know the thoughts You think toward Noah, and they are “thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give [Noah] a future and a hope” (Jeremiah 29:11). Thank You, for such wondrous thoughts toward all of us and for giving us the desires of our hearts. Remind us of how great and precious these thoughts and gifts are, that we may thank You.
May Noah become the godly woman You desire her to be and be pleasing in Your sight. Guide and instruct her dad and I on how to continue training and bringing her up in Your ways. Be glorified through her life, Father; I ask these things, in Jesus’ name, amen.