And we know that all things work
together for good to those who love God,
to those who are the called according to [His] purpose.
~ Romans 8:28 ~
Getting old is a fact of life, but the process is another thing. Our perspective is vital to how we respond to the effects of aging. For me, the process has not been good. Sometimes I think that I received the bad end of the genetic stick, predisposing me to myriad physical ailments.
So, I am not well. But instead of feeling sorry for myself, which I can easily do, and “eat pity biscuits,” as Cheryl Brodersen says, I can take all these things to my Father.
There are days when I have felt like the woman who had an issue of blood for 12 years, and like the man who lay by the pool of Bethesda for 38 years — helpless. But in my helplessness, God is at work showing me my need; through His gracious strength I am sustained daily. Therefore, I have hope; hope for healing and hope for an abundant life, until the full number of my days is completed.
Today, God came to me through my husband, two pastors, and my sister. I woke my husband at 4 am because I was not well and I shared how I felt. He prayed for me and spoke truth into my heart as he washed me with the word of God. Through the pastors I heard that a life entrusted to God and His will is a life that has peace and joy, even in the midst of pain and suffering and when we do not understand what is going on. Clarification and perspective came through a conversation with my sister because I was able to talk out the things that have been on my mind and happening in my body.
I do not understanding what is going on, yet, but am asking our Lord to help me understand and to give me the wisdom that I need. My body is in His hands, I have not been forsaken, I am loved by Him. The point is I belong to God, and ALL the things that are going on right now, will work together for my good because I love Him and have been called according to [His] purpose.
Heavenly Father, though this stage in my life is difficult in so many areas, my prayer is that somehow You will be glorified. When self-pity, fear, or false thoughts come, help me to recognize them, take them captive, and bring them into Christ’s obedience. Help me to remain focused on You and glorify You; I ask these things in Jesus’ name, amen.