Sleepless in California

“In returning and rest you shall be saved
In quietness and confidence shall be your strength.”
~ Isaiah 30:15 ~

NightLightThis Scripture keeps coming to mind in the middle of the night when my mind and body have a “sleepless in California” event. It’s as if the Lord is piercing the darkness and muddling clouds in my mind with His light:

“Maria, return to Me. Your focus is on what your body is doing right now; take your thoughts and bring them captive to My obedience. Rest in Me; I know what’s happening to your body and I’m taking care of you.”

“Be quiet—be still, and know that I am God. Don’t worry, don’t imagine things that aren’t true. Trust Me; I am taking care of you.”

Usually, as my mind begins to focus on Him, fears and anxieties that grip my heart are eliminated as His peace enters and fills my soul. I fall asleep resting in Him, and in the morning I receive the strength needed for the day.

But, that’s not what happened early Thursday morning.

Be_stillI couldn’t sleep. The words of Isaiah 30:15 entered into my thoughts. I tried to turn to Him, rest, and be quiet, trusting Him to bring peace; however, my mind and body refused to cooperate with Him. A fury of thoughts swirled about my mind, while my body danced on the bed in a futile search for comfort.

After some time, through the Lord, the battle for my mind was won, but then my body started to shake. I woke Don shortly after 4 a.m.; he quickly prayed and held me. We talked for a while about why I couldn’t sleep and prayed again. Slowly, prayer was answered as his warmth eliminated the shaking, helped my body to relax, and I was able to get some sleep. (Don is so good to me!)

When I got up, I was weary and so wobbly that I felt like a Weeble (Webbles wobble, but they don’t fall down!). I had to cancel everything I had scheduled for the day. After eating breakfast and going over some of Noah’s work, I was able to take a refreshing four-hour nap.

Last night Don asked me if what happened was spiritual or physical in nature; I told him I thought it was both. He just responded, “Hmm…” Whatever the reason was for Thursday morning’s sleepless condition, I’m confident the Lord is caring for me and in a few days I’ll be better.

“In returning and rest you shall be saved. In quietness and confidence shall be your strength.” It’s true—when we turn to God, we rest. When we are quiet before Him and know that He is God, we are saying that we trust Him with our situation. Doing this saves us from pointless mental, physical, and emotional distress, and we are strengthened in our trust in and relationship with Him.

One more thing, the rest of Isaiah 30:15 says, “But you would not.” The choice is ours. I’m certain the Lord knows the difference between us being willing, but unable to turn to Him due to a physical problem, and being able, but unwilling to turn to Him. It appears to me that our response to His command to return, rest, be quiet, and trust Him, is preferable to the consequences of disobeying Him.

Father, I’m thankful that You are with me when I can’t sleep and my mind is like a tornado of thoughts. You’re faithful to bring Isaiah 30:15 to mind in order to shift my focus from me to You, thus saving me from chaotic thinking and sleep deprivation, so that my body gets to rest and heal, and I have the strength to get me through the next day. Your grace, Lord Jesus, is truly sufficient for me, for when I am weak, You make me strong.

Fill us with Your Holy Spirit that we may walk in step with You and know You. We bless and magnify You, and thank and exalt You for all You do and are, in Jesus’ name, amen.

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