Teach us to number our days,
that we may gain a heart of wisdom.
~ Psalm 90:12 ~
In a moment’s decision, I was conceived. And it was in a moment in 1988 that my life was changed forever. It is said that decisions that bring life-changing events are made in less than 2 minutes. I believe, these decisions are made in a split-second.
Today, I am 60 years old. Hard to imagine, but it is true. I have one photo of me as a baby—taken at an angle that shows a wee nose surrounded by an untamed mass of black hair that is sticking out in every direction. (Sorry, it is in a box, somewhere in a storage facility.)
I have no idea what this year will bring, but I know who holds each day. He is doing something new in us; He reinforced it three times within two days with a passage from Isaiah, chapter 43, verses 16, 18-19,
Thus says the Lord, who makes a way in the sea
And a path through the mighty waters,
Who brings forth the chariot and horse,
The army and the power. . .
“Do not remember the former things,
Nor consider the things of old.
Behold, I will do a new thing,
Now it shall spring forth;
Shall you not know it?
I will even make a road in the wilderness
And rivers in the desert.”
After reading through these verses on December 31st, I read Isaiah 43 from the beginning through verse 21. The same thing that the LORD said to Israel in verses 1 through 3, He was saying to me,
“Fear not, for I have redeemed you;
I have called you by your name;
You are Mine.
When you pass through the waters, I will be with you;
And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you.
When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned,
Nor shall the flame scorch you.
For I am the Lord your God,
The Holy One of Israel, your Savior;
I gave Egypt for your ransom,
Ethiopia and Seba in your place.”
The truth of these verses is this: He has redeemed me, He has called me by my name, I am His. He is with me through every trial. He gave Jesus, His only beloved Son as a ransom for me, and He took my place on the cross. He is my Savior.
I am—we are— His witnesses (many people are watching what God is doing in our lives and its outcome), and He is our God, the One and only true and living God, verses 10-11,
“You are My witnesses,” says the Lord,
“And My servant whom I have chosen,
That you may know and believe Me,
And understand that I am He.
Before Me there was no God formed,
Nor shall there be after Me.
I, even I, am the Lord,
And besides Me there is no savior.”
My encouragement is that you know that He will speak to you, just as He spoke to me through these verses. Some of you are going through very difficult things; and decisions have to be made regarding your finances, health, relationships, and so many other things. Spend time with Him, especially when you do not feel like it. Seek Him, ask Him, keep knocking until the door opens; be diligent, do not give up. Each day has its own difficulties, but bring them to Him. He will meet you where you are.
God does meet us. Today, I woke up discouraged and with dread in my heart; I stayed in bed for a while. After listening to a women’s Bible study—that “happened” to be on the radio about waiting and praying until an answer comes—I got up. Then, while looking at myself in the mirror, in a single moment, I deliberately chose to spend the day in thankfulness. So I began, “Thank You, for each breath and beat of my heart (60 years’ worth!). Thank You, for Don and Noah. Thank You, for a place to live—where we can sleep, cook, and wash up.” In that moment, the discouragement and dread dissipated.
That, I believe, is what gaining a heart of wisdom is about. Taking the time to do what God would rather have us do, instead of going our own way.
Father, You never give us more than we can handle and the truth is, You hold us and carry us through whatever valley of death we are going through. We forget the truth of: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by your name; You are Mine.” There is so much comfort in Your words! Thank You for the veracity of Your word, its insights and encouragement.
I have no idea what awaits me in this 60th year of life—and us as a family, but I have no doubt that You are with us and in control of our lives. Help us to wait, pray, and seek You; strengthen our trust, grow our faith, and guide us in the way we should go. We are so weak, Father! We quickly grow weary and come close to losing heart, thereby hope. Yet, here is Your promise: “When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they shall not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you shall not be burned, Nor shall the flame scorch you.” Help us to live in the truth of Your promise and who You are. In Jesus’ precious name, amen.